Everyone at one point in time has encountered some bad luck. Your not making enough money, you work for an owner who doesn’t respect you and treats you like crap. Every week I was stressed, will I have enough to cover the bills, let alone to treat myself. I want to be able to have extra money to go on a trip or to buy me some new clothes, so i made the jump. 

Just surving is stressful, then my boss mentioned this business. She recommended a few products to try (the greens berry flavor and the facial mask) and I must say they worked. To be part of the business I had to pay $99, hell I didn’t have that laying around, but I notice that you can join for only $9.99 (with tax come out $15). You don’t have to take my word for it, you can see for yourself. Come join my team and I can help you reach those goals you have set aside. 

My mother the sea witch 

As daughter of Yemaya I’m drawn to the ocean, it calls out to me, yet I have to be very careful as it can over take me. Yemaya will protect all her children and loves them, but at the same time she won’t let them go. We have to remind her that we are human and that we live on land. She is loving (I can be at times) but when she is angry she’ll destroy everything (her wrath is like a tsunami she comes in destroys everything in her path and leaves the same way). She will always be my guardian, myprotector she is my mother and I am her daughter. She has always been part of me, she’s there when I’m at my lowest and when I’m at my highest, she loves unconditionally. Without her I would have been lost at sea, she helps clear my mind and guides me on the right path. #mffyemaya #mimadreesyemaya #theseawitch #piratewitch #motherofall 

What is on your bucket list?

Have you ever been curious as to what people have on their bucket list? 

I’ve been asked many a time as to what be my ultimate bucket list adventure. Here is my top 5 items:

  1. This one people think I’m crazy. I would love to go tornado chasing in the mid west! Yes! I know, are you batty shit crazy? Why are you going to put your life in danger just to chase a tornado. Well, if you know me then you will understand why this is high on my to do list! Lol
  2. This one would be to visit Machu Picchu. built in the 15th century and one of the incan cidetals built high in the Andes mountains of Peru. Did you know that Machu Picchu is one of the world’s most mysterious and captivating man-made marvels. 
  3. See the northern lights-yes I’d probably freeze my ass off but it would be so worth it!
  4. This one was a toss up, but the pyramids of Gaza won the coin toss.
  5. Making the Scottish Highlands come in next. Something about living surrounded by beautiful mountains and valleys takes my breath away.

Not a good morning 

In the 10 years that I’ve suffered with fibromyalgia, today is the day that my pain threshold broke. Never have I felt this much pain that with every breath every movement I feel my skin being ripped off my body. I’ve mastered pushing through the pain with a smile on my face, but today my body reminded me that I’m not as strong as I once was. #fuckmylife #thishurts #fibromyalgia #excruciatingpain 

RA rant (there will be foul language in this rant)

We all know if suffer from Rheumatoid Arthritis we all have our ups and downs. Some cocktails work while others make us sick to our stomach. But since when do we have to pay $467-$550 for 4 and I mean 4 auto-inject pens?!? 

I can’t afford that, shit that’s practically my entire paycheck! Let alone a visit ($110 office visit) to 2 of the 4 specialist I see. When I had medi-cal my medications and specialist visits were covered, but now that I earn more income they informed me that I need to roll over to Cover-California. It’s become a shark frenzy, the insurance companies hike up their rates and those who need to see specialists have to pay extra. I’m a high risk “customer” if I tell the insurance company the number of medication I fill a month or how may times I see a dr or how often I get blood work done I’d be given a plan at the highest rate.

It sucks for those who suffer from this autoimmune illness, it feels like we are restricted in which doctors we can see or what type of medication we can get that are “covered” by insurance. There has to be a better way of getting our medication at a reasonable price, some of us can’t afford to spend hundreds of dollars living paycheck to paycheck.

My everyday life with pain

I suffer with constant pain everyday, sometimes it’s tolerable and other times I just want to lay in bed and not move an inch.

For more then 10 years I’ve suffer from rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia. Neither of which are fun let alone when I suffer a double flare up. It’s been 10 years since I was diagnosed, and if someone would have told me that I’d be in so much pain back then, I’d probably tell them that they were crazy.

I have my days where I can function pretty good, I’m able to move around with a little bit of pain bit I manage. Then there are days that I just wish someone would give me a bionic body, just like the bionic woman! There are times when I’d wake up with my joints hurting then the pain would progress and I realize I’m going through a double flare up. 

About 2 years again my physician told me that I would eventually need a handicap placard, and to my surprise he filled out the the forms already. I tell apeople that I have a high pain tolerance, I often compare it to getting a tattoo. Some think that getting tattooed would hurt twice as much, but contrary to belief it’s very comforting. 

Many people don’t understand that struggle people with RA and Fibromyalgia go through. My hair hurts at times or my ankles are so swollen that it feels like my skin is going to rip apart. Oh and the fatigue that comes along with both autoimmune illnesses. This is what drives me crazy the most. Apparently, when I say I’m tired I must provide a reason as to why I am tired. And when I do, it not good enough for them. Or when I’m going through some brain fog (part of my fibromyalgia) people think I’m just playing dumb. When in reality, I’m struggling to concentrate on what I am doing at that moment. 

Sometimes I wish people would understand what I go through on a daily bases. It seems like I’m asking for a miracle and people will continue  to judge and criticize what they know nothing about. 

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